marriage and midwifery
Speaking just for myself here (not for Paul), it’s funny to me how actually being married does subtly change the way I think about things. While I’ve made an effort to make my work about me and not let Paul influence my decisions surrounding it (aside from his financial support and undying love, of course), now that we are married it suddenly seems very unrealistic to expect him to have me running out at all hours of the night, never able to leave Sacramento. Like of course he could do that for months at a time. But for the rest of our lives??? And even if he would, do I really want to be married to someone who doesn’t care if they ever do things with me or see me? It’s a challenge for many midwives–the balance between family and supporting clients the way they want to be supported.
I brought this up at our regional midwifery meeting last night, and it seemed that the potential students in the room were in agreement. The midwives, on the other hand, are deeply concerned about what it would mean for midwifery if there was even more of a shift in the midwife-client relationship towards midwife as health care provider and client as patient, versus midwife as a community member, friend, confidant.
The problem is, that the number of midwives currently out there can’t meet the demand. And there aren’t enough women out there who want to entirely self-sacrifice to become midwives. So there has to be a middle ground. Some point at which women can still have safe, intervention-free births, in their home with a midwife. But it may not be a midwife they’ve spent fifteen hour long appointments getting to know. It may be that the midwives who arrive at their birth are two of four midwives in a practice they’ve met just a few times during their pregnancy. And while that may be a dilute version of midwifery, it may very well be the only way to make midwifery a sustainable, healthy profession. One where more women can have homebirths as a foundation for a healthy family, and the midwives they work with can also take care of themselves and their families.
Home birth is too important to let it fizzle out because we burn out the women making it possible. And women interested in midwifery as a profession (not as the be all and end all of their life) need to see that there is support from the community for midwives to practice in a variety of ways.
And I need to be able to see my husband. And take my future children to the beach on the occasional weekend.